Being able to share my voice is a gift I don't want to ever take for granted. This blog is a window to my heart & my business. You'll be able to enjoy my latest sessions & photography tips. But I'll also be sharing more of my passions like pursuing a simpler lifestyle and personal images from our day to day.
Anytime a birthday rolls around, it’s natural to reflect on the life you’ve already lived and think about the rest of the years you hope to have. You think about the choices you’re proud of and the ones you’re not so proud. You think about love, friendships, family and how they all intertwine into your daily life. Last month, I was fortunate to celebrate my 30th birthday with family & friends all weekend long. Talk about feeling blessed and humbled.
As I approached my 30th birthday, my mind was a mix of emotions. I’m so happy and thankful for where I am right now. Marveled that God continues to work in my heart even when I refuse to listen and thankful that we have settled in a wonderful church that challenges us to be who God wants us to be. Married to the man I fell for the moment I saw him on that volleyball court ten years ago. Who loves me unconditionally, supports me in all my endeavors and has been through the mountaintops and the valleys with me. Blessed with our two beautiful, healthy daughters who light up our lives and make every day an adventure. Fortunate to be making our home in the country where we hear the birds every morning and our girls can run free. Thankful to have the option to stay home with them and soak up these days while our children are little. Grateful for this photography business that brings me & my clients so much fulfillment. A loving family and wonderful friends are the icing on the cake.
These are the life giving things in my life. It’s easy to focus on just the good and not learn from the hardships or downfalls. I couldn’t help but think about the sweet baby that we lost back in January. I was supposed to be 34 weeks pregnant on my birthday. The feelings of sadness, frustration and numbness returned as I thought about how different our life would be if that were still the case. But then I remembered the strange peace that came over us during that dark time that only God can provide and reminded myself that He has a plan for our family.
Remembering the speed at which I used to do life almost makes me cringe. Sometimes that desire to produce and be labeled as successful still enters into my daily life. Especially as I’m still new in treating photography like a business and not just a hobby. There are so many pieces to the business puzzle and when coupled with home renovations, marriage, raising children and keeping up with loved ones; it can seem flat out overwhelming. Which is usually when I want to bury myself in a good book and not resurface for a while.
I’ve realized though that the feeling of overwhelm just means that life needs to be simpler. Less schedules. Less commitments. More room to breathe. More margin. Set work hours that start and begin and don’t go on and on. Shutting off the creative wheel and being Elizabeth.
The Elizabeth who rarely wears makeup, no longer colors her hair, wears the same clothes over and over because I love them, who creates a simpler, less chaotic schedule.
Allowing space to creep into my life and have a sit. Being open to quiet, mindful thoughts that don’t have a task to complete. Because when I look back in 30 years, I want to be proud that I loved my family well and left an impact on others to actually live this beautiful life. And let the fluff and distractions fall to the wayside.
I’ll leave you with a quote from one of my favorite books that hit me like a ton of bricks. “I don’t want to get to the end of my life and look back and realize that the best thing about me was I was organized.” -Shauna Niequest, Present Over Perfect